Maby i wasn't the one part 7

once i left the hospital, i went directly to her family to talk about and tell them that she needed to live outside that hospital to recover but they were not interested in taking my advise, as they hated me for our past relationship. i tried to convince them on my stand but all in vein. i was heading back to my apartment, when suddenly an idea strike my head and i was smiling. I took U-turn only to take another U-turn as i was a bit scared of executing the idea, and i decide to give a night thought to my idea. Reaching home i was lying in the bed, when i discovered that the day was pretty intense one. and i was falling in love again, but this time again it was to a complete stranger as she didn't remember me any more.
My deep thoughts were all filled with one person and that was her, and their i took a final decision of what will me my next step. THE BIG STEP

Maby i wasn't the one- part-6 There She was

The waiting time for me was really tensed as i had mixed thoughts about her, excitement to see her after so long, afraid thinking how she will react, and then worried to know, what happened to her.

but when she entered the waiting, my all emotions just got diluted to tears as i was not meeting the same girl, i was seeing a half conscious body lying half awake on the wheel chair driven by a ward boy, but that time i thing i brought me back to conscious was her eyes which were so alive and which were saying "i don't belong here,plz take me out" and that was the moment i for the first time in my was so moved that i just took a decision in my mind that "yes you don't belong here,you won't be here my baby". i don't know, to whom i was making the promise that "i have to take her out" and i just wanted to cry on somebody's shoulder for i was feeling guilty for not being with her in her hard moments. For next one hour, i was feeling fatherly for her, i cleaned her face with my hands, i setup her hair and i was trying to find old girl in her and after so long i was touching her,but this touch made me feel more and more guilty. i just kept staring at her eyes because they were only responding to me, maby i was myself communicating with her eyes, and after that i my decision to take her away from this environment was more stoned. i bid a smile to her, thinking that she will respond but to no use. so after 3 long hours, the ward boy enters to take her for lunch and i hold her hand so tight showing that my promise was so firm. I went out to the reception and met her doctor who was seeing her and inquired about her condition although professionally the doctor was pretty confident that she may end up in coma, but with some casual talk she informed me that "her healing process lies outside the hospital", and this made me more assured that she will be out soon and healthy like before sooner. I inquired about the procedure to take her out of the hospital with me, at that she responded negative as the procedure need the permission of family or admitter. Soon i left the hospital and headed towards her home, taking along me the friend who informed me all about her. i told her about my decision, and initially she resisted but once i ensured my care and love that i still carry for her then she was with me. Now i was pretty sure that i will be the person with whom she will recover. and knowing her family already , my task was not tough. But once i reached her home i realized that our path together was still FAR. 

Maby i wasn't the one part-5 (some memories)

listening to the heart breaking news, i was going to the hospital,in the midway, my hatred for her was melted and i started recalling our our old good memories wherein being with her used to be enough to make my day good. i remembered how while we used to be in college bus coming back home in rainy days, we used to get our reserved the last seats and rain used to work as compliment to her beauty and her lips used to be wet and shivering due to cold water and i used to soak in their vibration with mine. The life used to be just so simple when in the classes, i used to pinch her back while she was giving answers to the teacher's and her naughty smile used to be the center of attraction of our class, and i used to feel blessed to be the Boyfriend of such a nice soul.

The way she used to shy to dance with me in the fests and i used to see her dance from distance so that she can be comfortable within her friends and i couldn't forget the day of one our fest when i was not to come but finally came to surprise her and the way she hugged me so tight as if a the desert has got water back to its lap. That was one moment when i felt her that we were soul mates,because her heart was pumping fast and i was feeling the same inside me. 

Thinking about these events i reached hospital, and was afraid and was preparing to see how she will react to see me. As i entered, and completed hospital registration procedure and waiting for her to come.My heart was racing and suddenly door made its chirping sound and i turned back... There she was...

Maby i wasn;t the one part 4 ( i was still in love with her)

Now that she was finally over me and i was back to my life as a business man life went on smoothly, heart still beating 4 her but mind repeating what she did to me. I was busy with my life one day i got a mail from college that the alumni meet of our college was organized, suddenly a small smile in disguised appeared on my face, i don;t know what was that smile for ,obviously i had overcome her and i was pretty sure that i won't be meeting her or getting attracted to her.Along with some friends i went to alumni meet, there old memories were refreshed and old friends in new customs of clothing met each other. It was going well, while in talk with a friend, i suddenly inquired about her, i don't know why i inquired about her, but listening to the answer i got another shock of my life, and body suddenly felt a jerk so intense like an earth quake. the friend informed me that, "She was in mental asylum" for last 10 months. i was taken aback from the news and i left the meet, and went straight to see her, and inside me, i was feeling guilty of letting her go away from me. The friend told that, the person she was dating was in love with her and their relationship was going well, when suddenly they had to separate for reason not known to anyone except them, and after 2-3 months of their deteriorating relationship, they were away from each other, and since then her health was down, and her family to contact the person but he kept on ignoring her, and then she had to be admitted to the asylum, and since then she was there only.While driving, tears were shedding off my eyes, i don;t know why?- maby because i was still in love with her or because i was happy that she deserved that for what she did to me.

Maby i wasn't the One part-3 (and she was gone...)

The day we last made love was beautiful, we were so compassionately into each other , kissing each other, hugging each other, feeling each other's love heat, but there was something that was making me feel odd bout the moment, i don't know, what was that?.At that time i ignore it, as we have just decided to be away physically, but we can be friends.
I used to believe that two person who had their soul touch each other can not just be comfortable to see each other as two different soul, but she took promise from me to be her friend forever. and because she was the half soul of me for last four years, i could not resist her thought and so i too gave her the promise of being her friend.
Next month was like a century to pass, although we were in contact like friends, and we were discovering new bonding with each other, more like a casual bonding unlike that we shared in last four years as former bonding was was more of soul mates. we became such close friends again that we even shared the talks about our new crushes and new partner. She told me that she is dating someone and i was really happy for her as she was finally moving on, and strangely nothing bad was happening between us,
One day, in good mood i asked her to go out to hang out but she told me that she was busy for next few days with her family and the casual talk continued.
The life with her as buddy was also cool, and i dint miss much of our old relationship days, as more than anything we were "friends- the best relation in the world"- a relation without rules or commitments with a unsaid trust in it.And i was enjoying the moment with her, she was getting some call center job, she was shy to tell as it was not on par to our degree but she took the job and i was happy for her, that finally she was getting along the wave of life but deep inside.
Next month there was some festival, and i had to meet one of our common friends after our graduation ended, and i told her that, and she offered to meet in along with our friend, but for some reason she couldn't make up and my excitement was vanished but was back again as i meeting my friend after long 2 months. we met at a mall- in our college,  we all used to hang out there many times, and so we were remembering old moments ,walking around , chatting like old crazy days, and then within the talks i got the "shock of my life", i was informed that "She -my spl. one went to a birthday party of a common friend the same day when i offered her to hang out-which she ignored saying she was busy with my family", and i was numb at that very moment, not because she dint went with me, but because she "lied" to me. i din't know how to react,that day something odd that i felt on the last of our relationship was intensified and while coming back home, i was somehow dragging me , as the moment was getting so heavy on me that i couldn't bear it,it was so hard to believe that she was over me in a month, but why would she lie to me when she asked us to be friend, my night was vandalized by the thought, and finally sun came around Life could suck sometimes but so soon, i never expected. i decide to confront her, and i called her and asked her about that day and the lie but to my surprise she was so cool and relaxed as if nothing happened and it was so normal, she even blamed me of being narrow minded as she said that she dint tell truth to me because i'll be angry and hurt, and told me that she was no longer my girlfriend and she yelled at me for being making her life hell for last. i was again in shock and without saying anything, i hung up the phone and life for next week or month was tough as memories of time with her mixed with the ill-reasoned parting ways was making me feel awful. i felt guilty of making her life hell-as she said, as for me those times were the best times of my life. I was blaming myself for being such a jerk- who let her go. i satisfied myself that i was a bad person and she was right i was narrow minded, not understanding, selfish person, these feelings were getting intensified because i dint share these events with anybody as i was called so by my best buddy and love, with whom i shared everything earlier.
I was in a greater depression mood, and my health was deteriorating, but sometimes life gets messed up because it is blending itself to be best for your future. and so was in my case. but one thing that was there in mind hurting me was that she was gone...

Maby i wasn't the One part1

She was beautiful, this is the simplest way in which i can define her, her presence was always very addicting, she made me feel alive, she was like the DRUG that bring the original 'you' outta 'you', wheneva i saw her around, she was so real to me, she was true to me, she was rude sometimes but not once her intentions were to make my life less better.
She was one person after my family, in front of whom i feel connected to myself.

What are dreams?

Dreams constitute every event or story( in its real sense) that has happened to person. real sense means for example, Imagine oneself on stage giving speech to a crowd of thousands,while speaking one have looked at thousands of person but remembers hardly anything, but actually a part of our mind (dreaming mind) remember every face and event that was occurring there in front of person.The dreaming mind is like unrealized storage house of unlimited storage capacity. while dreaming , sometimes we feel, that the events are very familiar and sometimes we feel events are weird, unknown, alien, horrifying, but the fact is every story in dream belongs to the person .one is the owner of his own dreams.